Monday, March 14, 2011
I can't but i have to
I don't want but i have to
Reality of life is here and for the past few days, i am thinking alot.
The change is dramatic. To be honest, i don't like my work and i don't think i am ever going to like it but what i have is a chance to learn. I understand the importance of learning.
I realised i am quite a coward because i am always afraid of doing things which i do not have the interest or i am not good in. It's not like in school, there, whenever i meet a difficulty, i only need to turn to my left/right, Peifen will be there. When i turn behind, Rongyuan and others will clear my doubts and if i am lazy to turn behind, i can just shout my question and jascinta will turn back to answer me.
If i want, i can even raise my hand and help will come to me. I just realised, i cannot do this anymore. Everytime i meet a difficulty, i just try to escape or wait for somebody to spoonfeed me. Even though i am 21, i realised i am not that matured YET.
Now, reality strikes. I got to plan for savings. I have the right to complain how heavy the cost of living is now.
Life is going to be tough but i know if i have the motivation, i can take down any challenges on the way. I am just looking for it....
7:23 AM
