Sunday, October 9, 2011
Finally back here again!
I've pretty much lost the enthusiasm i first had. Illnesses have been hampering my trainings and there has been a serious lack of motivation from myself to do well.
Staying away from home is tough and i have 3 months to go. We are close to the halfway mark. My aim is not to be the best but neither the worst. Like what the commanders always said, make full use of your time in BMT make it a meaningful one. I got to admit that right now, my main aim is just to lose weight as i have serious doubts over my fitness.
At the end of this 19 weeks, do i only want to lose 15kg or even only 20kg? I want to gain something from this 19 weeks and this includes becoming a soldier who is able to defend my country.
Fights had been frequent in the platoon for the last week and i have been feeling bad for it. The weather is hot, sleep is minimal and its no surprise that people are on a short fuse but i just do not want to have any enemies. On a seperate note, i was impressed that army and camaderie indeed can change a person's mind.
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